As I'm sitting here on this cold, October evening in Rexburg, I honestly don't know what to talk about. I have so many ideas but don't know what to talk about but I think I will just talk about a bunch of stuff. Don't worry though, this will be totally worth it and another amazing blog.
First off, I'll let you guys all know that school is amazing and is awesome right now. I am currently majoring in communications but I am planning on changing it to Elementary education and then sticking with that. I love my roommates this semester. They are amazing dudes and I couldn't ask for anyone better. I have met so many new people this semester and have made so many amazing new friends so I am pretty happy with where I am on that right now. All my old friends live right around the corner from me, so I still visit them everyday but it kinda sucks that I have to walk to go hang out with them. Other than that, things are pretty mighty dandy and this semester is going to be a great but cold one.
I have a couple stories to share but here is my first story about something that happened on Monday.
Ok. I am actually going to share an experience with everyone that happened the other day. This is something that no one is allowed to chastise me for but I don't recommend it for anyone else. I am literally opening up to how this all went down to all of Facebook and the world so hopefully this works well. Anyway, I like this girl. I've known her for a while (most of my friends know who I am talking about) but I never told her. Usually girls I like will know right away because I can't hide it and I confess it to them. Anyway, this friend I knew for 4 months and then I went home for school and she stayed and I haven't seen her in a while. Last semester, my friends (roommates this semester), who know her very well, told me I should tell her. I knew it wasn't going anywhere, but she also informed me that she was going to serve a mission, so if I were to tell her, it should be sooner than later. I contemplated it but never got the guts to do it. As it drew closer to her time to leave on her mission, I realize that I shouldn't tell her and decided I was going to keep it to myself. It was killing me though. How can I go the next three years without her knowing? Oh well, I thought. So we are texting the other day and the conversation gets into the girl I like. And I'm at the point where I want her to know but I don't want to tell her because "Hey, she's leaving on her mission. I don't want to be that kid who tells someone he likes someone right before their mission. Like that's not cool." Little did I know that I would become that boy. After she told me she wanted to know, I told her to call me later. At this point, she obviously knew it was her but she was going to call me anyway. She calls me a day later and I was like hey and then a bunch of awkward conversation happened and then I hesitated to tell her. Of course, at this point she probably knows it's her because I was so nervous to tell her. I finally just blabbered on and told her and just kept talking and blah blah blah. Anyway, I knew exactly what her response was going to be, in fact, I told her her response while I was talking.
So what's the point of this story?
The point here is that if you like someone, TELL THEM. But hold on, one second. DON'T DO WHAT I DID. What I did is not how you tell a girl you like. Yes, I knew she was going to tell me that she was focused on her mission and not into relationships or boys right now. No, I was not looking to get her to ditch her mission last minute, HECK, I haven't even served a mission yet. But you know what, what if I died or something happened and I could have never told her. That would suck. I had to tell her even though it wasn't good timing at all. If I'm going to give advice, my advice is to tell your friends and family that you love them. Tell the girl you like that you like them, LET THEM KNOW YOUR FEELINGS. Once again, DON'T TELL THEM RIGHT BEFORE THEIR MISSION. I want to keep emphasizing that because that was not the way to go. I only did that because I felt that I needed her to know and I couldn't keep it in. I know it was something I should have done a long time ago but I didn't and I regret doing it later rather than sooner. Anyway, just go for it and tell them. THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN LOSE.
My other story is about phone addictions. I hate writing these things so this story will be shorter. I HAVE A PHONE ADDICTION AND I WILL ADMIT IT. I love my phone, I love social media, I just love it all. I'm always on it looking for notifications for Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Snapchat. However, yesterday in my mass media class, my professor challenged me to delete the apps and not go on it until the weekend. It has only been a day and I have already struggled. I will continue to turn on my phone and swipe around, only to realize that I have no access to my social media. I finally realized that I have a phone addiction. Trust me, an addiction to a phone is just as bad as an addiction to drugs and other things. It does affect you differently but it is just as bad. I started relying on my phone so much that it took control of my mind. I can tell that it took control of what I did. I got into such deep habits of pulling my phone out and looking at it, that even without social media, I still do it and I can't stop. My phone was controlling everything I did. I didn't even notice that my phone was doing this to me and that it has such a huge effect on my daily life. These past 24 hours has shown me that phones truly can control what you do and can have a huge negative influence on your life. Deleting social media apps from my phone was a great idea and although it is hard, I will be able to do this. Heck, I'm posting this onto Facebook but I won't even see likes or comments because I'm sharing which means I don't have to log onto Facebook to post. I won't see any notifications until Friday at 2 or 3, whenever I decide to download social media again. Anyway, I hope you guys realize how social media and your phone can affect what you do and how dangerous it is to always be on it.
Moral of the story: Tell the girl you like her (unless she's leaving on her mission) and don't let your phone control you. These are important things to do in life and will definitely help you in being better. Honestly, as much as I didn't want to tell her that I liked her, it felt so much better getting it off my chest. Don't be scared to tell someone that you like them. I should have told her months ago but didn't and I regret doing it now. Stay off your phone!!! Allow your mind to communicate with others and free your mind from social media. Interact with people in the real world and not virtual people that are behind a screen. This is much healthier for your mind and so much better.
Anyway, I just wanted to share that with you. I hope you guys are enjoying yourself and life. I love it here in Rexburg and everything is going great. It is cold and it snowed the other day but I am having a blast and loving my friends and roommates. I love you all and thanks for reading yet again, another amazing blog post.
