Hey guys, I haven't even created a title for this one yet because I don't even know what I'm writing about. It's currently Tuesday afternoon and I'm sitting here on my couch listening to the Beauty and the Beast soundtrack and decided I should write another post. But a few minutes into writing this I realized why not write about the new TV show 13 Reasons Why. I won't write about it but I'll write about how we should treat others and I'll give a brief update on my life.
First off, I leave Friday to go back to school until July then come home for summer then go back from September to December. Anyway, these past three months have been such an eye opening experience. Yes, they have been super boring because I have no friends here in Temecula and they all live in Rexburg but I'll see them in less than a week. I can't wait!!! Especially can't wait to see Dimani. I LOVE YOU GIRL!!! She's the funniest person ever. Anyway back to the reason for this post.
I binge watched 13 Reasons Why in the span of 24 hours. I was going to stay up all night and watch it but got tired. The premise of the show is about a girl who commits suicide and leaves behind 13 tapes with 13 reasons why she killed herself targeted towards 12 different people. Now each individual reason on it's own may not seem like a huge deal but it's the fact that everything happened to her that led her to her decision. Now she wasn't some shy, lonely, ugly, girl who was bullied and had no friends. I feel like when a lot of people view suicide that's what they think of. UMMM, no, anyone can have those thoughts. This girl was a beautiful, lovely, sweet, kind, innocent girl. Of course, the other description you can be shy, lonely, ugly, kind, sweet, and innocent too. Heck, a lot of them aren't even ugly but I just wanted to share a description that describes that she wasn't a nobody. I hope this isn't coming off wrong. The whole school knew her. So anyway, it was so heartbreaking to see everything that happened to her and how this could have so easily been avoided. Which brings me to the title...
Everyone you know deserves to be loved. Don't be jerk and don't be an idiot. Joe Gatto, from Impractical Jokers, is a huge advocate against bullying. I love him so much and admire that he strives to be uplifting to everyone. He goes live on Periscope every Monday and at the end tells everyone to not be a bully and that it gets better and to not be mean, etc. Totally true what he says and it always helps me to stay strong at times when I'm struggling. You don't know what is going on in anyone's lives and its frickin annoying that anyone would treat someone like crap when their life might already be horrible as is. No one deserves it. I've been a bully and a victim. YOU ARE LYING TO YOURSELF IF YOU SAY YOU HAVEN'T BEEN A VICTIM OR A BULLY. There are a few exceptions and very few people I know that haven't been a bully in any form ever in their life. And if you're reading this then you probably aren't one of them. I didn't mean to sound like I was attacking anyone there but we should all be self aware of our actions and how we affect (I still don't know the difference between affect and effect) the people around us. We may hurt people's feelings and not even realize it. Being sarcastic doesn't let you off the hook, trust me, my sarcasm has hurt lots of feelings. Throughout high school, I would always find out about my friends hanging out and I was never invited. I've done it too. There have been times where I purposely wouldn't invite someone somewhere and I feel bad about it now. It made me feel horrible when those people wouldn't invite me. For prom last year, I didn't have a group of friends to go to dinner with so my prom date and I went with another student and his date that I've known since freshman year who also has Aspergers but is a little bit less functioning than me. At first, I was hesitant because I wanted to find a group with the "cool" kids but then I was like nah there isn't anything cool about not letting someone hang out with me. I had a blast with this student.
I want to share a few examples of people showing me love in my life. Lets start off with the three boys that I shared about I think in the past. It was a Friday night and none of my "friends" would hang out with me. These boys shared on Twitter that they were baking cookies and asked if anyone wanted some and so I replied back saying I do and they said they'd come by. It was around 10:30 PM and they still weren't there and so I gave up and then bam they showed up and it made my night. Later on, I was expressing my boredom on Twitter and they invited me to come over to their house to go swimming. Oh and they were Varsity football players. Contrary to what the Disney movies show, football players are not jerks. Umm, let's see my 16th surprise birthday party had over 50 people so that made me happy. I invited a few friends to come to my house and play ping pong and have Taco Bell one time and they showed up and we had a blast. I miss you Jacob Devine, Shayan Rahimi, Tanner Kuljian, Natalie Orme, JJ Wiggins, and Julia Pion. That was a great night.
Let's move onto college. Dimani is my favorite person ever. She's always excited to see me and she doesn't care that I always just randomly show up to her apartment. She has become like a second sister and one of my greatest friends at BYU Idaho. I have another friend that I wanna leave anonymous but this friend I found a little bit annoying or irritating at the beginning of the semester but as the semester grew on and we became closer she became one of my favorite people. Besides Dimani, I miss her the most and she is always there for me. She doesn't mind if I sit there and just vent about my problems to her. She is just one of those people that you can just talk to and it's great for me to be able to go to her. I trust her with everything. I can't wait to see her again. I've already talked about my roommate, but Adam Smith is such an amazing person. He helped me the first weekend invite my sister's best friend's apartment for a spaghetti dinner to impress a girl I liked in that apartment and from there our friendship just continued. He is a great roommate and we had so much fun throughout the semester. I miss him and hope that one day I'll be able to see him again. I don't think he's at BYU Idaho next semester. The rest of the friends I made that semester were amazing and I can't wait to see almost every single one of them in a few days. A few of them will be at home this semester but I'll see them again someday. College has been a huge blessing.
Anyway, I share that to show how easily it is to show love to everyone. Hang out with those that may be lonely and be kind to everyone around you. It's not that hard to show love and kindness. The simplest acts can go the longest ways. Show people you care and don't be a jerk. BEING A BULLY GETS YOU NO WHERE IN LIFE. Anyway thanks for reading. Love you all.
